{THAT NIGHT I DECIDED TO BELIEVE BEYOND MY FEELINGS...}

Well, it's 4:26am and I have been awake for about an hour and a half now. Since I went to bed around 10:30pm Ive been up about four times and each time I felt one symptom after another coming on. First, a small cough, then an itchy throat, after that a few small chills which led to a sore throat. (drops head in hands and takes deep breath). For a very long time now, I've been living that exhausted life. That, barely get out of bed, feed the kids, play with them from the couch, nurse baby, struggle to keep my eyes open, the thought of the energy it will take to get everyone up and out the house exhaust me type of life. And, it's not just because I have three littles. To be honest, I was living an exhausted life even before I had my babycakes. Its been wearing on my heart, wearing on my faith. I've already gotten revelation on God's will for myself and my family when it comes to health and healing. The bottom line is that He is the same today and yesterday. Therefore, the problem most lie with me. And tonight, as the symptoms slowly started creeping up, I decided to turn on Joyce Meyer and do a little research on food and healing. 

Syreena Notes: If we want victory, were gonna have to find out what the word says, think how God thinks and learn to say what God says. We need COMMITMENT, not EXCITEMENT. To take action deliberately, to do something on purpose. Think what God thinks, say what God says, so you can have what God wants you to have. SET YOUR MIND!

**exhale here**

One of the biggest things that the enemy uses to hold me back is sickness and exhaustion. Small sicknesses. One at a time or all together, whichever (I guess) he feels is needed at the time, to knock me down a bit. I know what God's word says about sickness and disease. I know that his will for me has not changed. I found that out a long time ago. I got excited! But, I didn't need excitement. I need commitment. I need to be committed to taking action deliberately and on purpose. I need to think what He thinks and say what He says, so that I can have what He wants me to have. SET MY MIND. 

Tonight, or should I say this morning, I am deciding to believe beyond my feelings. I/We can be no good to this hurting world if I/we are sick & tired. So this morning I am setting my mind on HEALTH and ENERGY. And my deliberate, on purpose action will be putting forth efforts towards better eating, rest (peace... free of worry & fear), exercise, and LAUGHTER. I am not sure where this will lead my family and I, as far as "titles" are concerned. (i.e. vegetarian, vegan, paleo, gluten-free etc.) But what I am sure of is that it is my commitment to ask God for direction as far as what is best for my family. I do believe that our bodies are our temples and that they are to be presented as a holy sacrifice. To me that means that being mindful of what we eat, how we exercise , how we care for it and refusing to allow stress and fear are key factors in how our bodies function. 

So, I guess this post is about the first step. MY COMMITMENT. To take charge as the example for my family. What I put on the table, they eat. The activities I plan, they do. What an overwhelming responsibility... without God. What a beautiful responsibility... with God. I'm committed. And, in the midst of my commitment, I fully expect/believe/have faith that, our bodies will be restored. Filled with energy. Free of disease. Free of sickness (even the common cold, and of EVERY ALLERGY!!! I'm excited! But, more importantly, I'm committed. Yup, tonight/today's that night/morning I decided to believe beyond my feelings...

p.s. I started my food research focusing on yummy snacks and craving replacers. And this broiled grapefruit fit the bill just fine. I remember my mommy making this for me when I was younger and I have no clue how I have forgotten about it until now. Half a grapefruit. a tiny sprinkle of cinnamon and a drizzle of honey. Popped under the broiler for about 10-15 minutes with a teaspoon of honey on the side. Love + Cupcake craving buster... so BOOM!!!

From Syreena, With Love