{ a beginning at the end // bc it's been a while... }
A beginning at the end
To be honest I have no idea where to start. It’s been a whole 1,800 days since i’ve shared on any of our social media platforms and i’ve needed every minute of it. I have so many updates to give, photos & videos to share, and memories to catch up on. so, ill just try my best to ease back in one step at a time.
The bottom line is… I’ve missed you.
Whoever “you” are.
The “you” that have been following our journey from the start or who’ve just found us a short time ago.
These last several months have been season after season of complete burnout and I’m grateful for every moment of it. Sports and activities are in overdrive, our homeschool studies are in cruise control, and I was forced into a corner where it was time to take care of myself and all the things i’d let go unattended for far too long. Every appointment I could make I did, every specialist I could tap into was secured. From cardiologist, dermatologist, optomoligist, endodontist, obstetricians and more, It’s been month after month of catching up on appointments for me.
Brian has been such a blessing.
Brian’s job has been such a blessing.
Juggling everyone working and schooling from home has been a challenge, But having all the people I love together day after day has been top tier. Having him home has meant so many extra moments to love on thier daddy and be loved by him. Lots of working on and talking through our relationship/marriage in this season and hopes for ones ahead. I’ve spent so many of our earlier years sharing my hopes and dreams for our family while days of late have been more about resting, trusting and leaving more quiet space for listening and leaning into the fact that #lifeislong so there’s no need to rush.
Cameron is a whole actual teenager and it is everything to me.
a whole vibe. well, my kind of vibe. observant, collected, thoughtful, & by all means… unbothered. he is a big picture kinda guy. slow processing and mild mannered. nostalgia is his jam. slow and steady, kind and compassionate. gosh, this kid I love!!!
Fourteen, and it just keeps getting better and better, challenges and all! We text and have deep discussions. We hug often, have bible study recaps, and he still holds my hand in public just to make me smile. Full basketball and soccer seasons have been such a big adjustment for me but I’ve come so very far. i’ve learned to give great pre-game pep talks and get all the footage for film study post game. Getting to know someone as they get older and mature when you’ve known them all their life is wild, just saying.
Savannah … this girl!
she’s our POP OF COLOR.
if live out loud was a person it would most certainly be Savannah Demi. She’s like the house manager that i never knew to ask for. Her energy is palpable and her joy meter maxes out everyday. She is our everything all at once. Three soccer teams and basketball. She dresses up for game days and loves the mall. She makes the best blueberry oatmeal and whips up batches of banana bread or brownies like no other. Pressing on towards double digits is her favorite things to discuss for the next 53 days until her 10th birthday.
Tinkerbell theme.
Green with shades of gold.
Surprise me but share a few details along the way. Itenarary Requested kindly she says. If something’s lost, shell find it. If you aren’t feeling well, she’ll nurse you back to health. she’s a FORCE and i’m forever grateful she is mine.
Kendall is my great equalizer.
our grounding force. our matter of fact. learning to code/animate and build community better and better everyday. taking technology head on, educating and disciplining himself to make good choices for his mind, body and soul… he is wise beyond his years. my theologian and linguist wrapped up in one handsome little chocolate kiss.
cooking is his passion. food is his love language. he’s packed on a little more to his schedule this season by joining the practice soccer team and he loves it. it keeps him fit and moving while his core studies and activities are quite sedentary ones.
I could go on forever sharing more of my little crew. I feel so blessed by who we are and all that we are to become.
I think its been so long since i’ve shared because I needed time to remember that i’m not in this for a perfect performance but rather a perfect surrender… saying yes to the lord day by day. sharing my thoughts, my challenges, our homeschool and lives was never in my plan. i’m a private human with a protective soul by nature. sharing has always been a sacrifice for me. an act of obedience and a measure of faith. so, here’s to another beginning at the end … of me. the one where I’m committed to the pursuit of the perfect surrender. the one where i’ll try and start sharing again.
sharing a homeschool and life lately update on our channel. pressing publish for the first time in 6+ months. pursuing a god kind of adventure of faith.
with all the love,
syreena